To my little sprout,
I am currently 30 weeks only 10 weeks to go until your due date which I expect you’ll be stubborn like your me and will wait a few extra days before you make an appearance. If you could wait until after your dad’s birthday that would be fab!
We haven’t met yet, and I wasn’t really sure what to expect when I found out I was going to be having you. There were a lot of feelings going round my head whether it was the right time but when would be the right time.
But I have come to realise I am going to be a damn good mum!
There are so many things that people have told me about babies and things to think about but let me tell you now there are going to mistakes and tough decisions but I promise we will do this together and figure it out.
This hasn’t been as an easy ride as I thought it would be. Gaining antenatal depression and other changes has really changed my mind on pregnancy, but it has also given me an opportunity to share my story with others who may be going through similar things and help them understand its ok not to be ok.
I never knew what feelings you would get during pregnancy or how it would feel. I was expecting to bond with you straight away but when there is nothing to hold or to see it’s difficult. But your grandparents and dad taught me to embrace the good and the bad times.
I am coming to the terms with the fact that you are going to be here soon and I’m sorry if I’m not always sure how to do something but I am always going to try my best to do the best by you.
I want to give you a few words of wisdom:
- Love yourself and embrace your body no matter what anyone tells you, your body was made for you and no one else.
- Women will be your biggest enemy and biggest support know the difference
- Always follow your heart, you know what is right and what is wrong
- Be spontaneous go and visit places don’t be afraid!
- Don’t lie be honest trust me the outcome is always better.
- Last of all be you and don’t let anyone drag you down stay strong, be opinionated, never think your dreams are too big.
Before I go I just want to say thank you, thank you for bringing me closer to my body and loving myself more, thank you for helping me and your dad become closer and realise the love we have for one another, thank you for letting me embrace my family and know how important they are.
You aren’t even born yet and you have changed my whole life. My life will change but I know you are worth it and I know if I am anything like my mum I’ve done the best possible job.
I cannot wait to meet you and see your little squidgy face and I can’t wait to see the look on your dads face when you are born.
You have made me realise what is and what isn’t important, whom I need and what I don’t need.
You have been a blessing in disguise who knew this would be my life or where I would end up but someone knew it was for the best.
Thank you for showing me it doesn’t matter that you aren’t here yet but you are the most important person in my life.
See you soon baby girl,
Your mum x